July 26, 2010

Woke up in a great mood today. I had a wonderful Sunday that just continued into today. I went for a walk with the husband, well I walked and he ran, around Reid Park. My knee felt pretty good when I walked, but it will catch and have a sharp pain. I cannot wait to have full bend of my knee. It is an awkward feeling when you can hyper extend your knee and when you go to squat down it shoots a pain so striking that you just hit the floor. I just keep working on my mobility with the exercises that Justin, my former trainer from the U of A, showed me. I just need to live in the moment and not worry about what I cannot do, but what I can do now and what impact I can have. So to live in today's moment I enjoyed a wonderful CrossFit class. I adjusted the WOD (Workout of the Day) so I could finish it the best way I could. We has 7 rounds of cleans and hand stand push-ups for time. The cleans were a light weight so that I did not have to jerk my knee around, but was able to get the weight up. My collar bone is a little sore from resting the bar on it. ;0) The hand stand push ups I walked myself up the wall so I did not have to through my legs up... I actually took the pressure off my knee, but added more to my arms. On the last handstand push-up I literally hit the the ground and could not get up. So I had to stand up and re-set, which took so much more arm strength that I did not think I could get up. Well I did and I finished in 12 min. I was pretty proud of myself. My workouts are looking a little different and the hurt a little more, but they are getting done.

July 24, 2010

Today has been good day. I started out the day with some much needed yoga. It is hard, through... I would love to go into deeper posses, but am restricted by the knee. It is all going to be okay because I know it will get better soon. It is just hard going from being so active to being restricted. I will take what I can and just keep being positive and know that I will be back into running shape in no time.
I have noticed that the hardest part of the day is when I wake up in the morning. My knee is so stiff that it really hurts to take those few steps first thing in the morning. Even if I get up in the middle of the night, when I get up I will get a shooting pain in my knee that will literally make me buckle. I am so afraid of doing something that will create more damage to the knee that I guard it all the time. I am always pushing my body and myself to the limits, but in this case I have backed off tremendously and did not realize how much I would miss running, cardio kickboxing and dancing around the showroom. I will be able to get to my favourite activities to there fullest soon enough, but today I am not being patient and I want it to happen now. The reasoning for being so impatient is because I have been over compensating for many weeks now. My arms and right side are feeling the burn and I want it to be a full body experience, not just a right side and upper body experience. Just tell myself that patience is a virtue. Just keep swimming… Just keep swimming. Today is a good day and lets rock it out with that!

July 22, 2010

So today is the first day afte I set the schedule for my surgery. I am nervous, but excited all at the same time. I just want to get to running and training again. Yoga has been amazing during this journey. It really makes you listen to your body and find your limits. We are all so used to pushing ourselves to the breaking point. Why? To be the star athlete? The captain of the team? or simply to say nothing will ever stop us. Either way our bodies will decide for us whether we want it to or not. If I had listened to my knee when I was hearing a clicking noise maybe I would not be here today. However I am here and I am getting surgery. That is ok though, because I know that I am healthy and strong and will get back on top in no time.